This is the word in my mind since last 3 months. I should have said it before but never gathered courage to say it. All I can give you is this word. You saved my life and me.
I was a pious Muslim from India ,always curios about religion and god since childhood right now I am 22 years old in engineering , I was very pious Muslim goes to prayer everyday hated Jews and Christians. People around me used to say they are our great enemies and I believed them without knowing who Jews are, but I knew Christians. They were America in my opinion. They would go to hell and we would go in heaven for certain.
When I grew up I went to another city for my studies. My r roommate was agnostic I used to curse him inside my mind. One day I debated him on some subjects. He questioned many things and all I could say was, please don’t say it or God will punish you. He used to read only some books written by Christopher Hitchens He told me to read some books of him and I did. That sow the seeds of doubt in my mind. Then I read Robert Spencer’s Book The Truth Of Muhammad (I highly recommend this book to all Muslim who want to know their prophet, after that I realized that Indian Muslims don’t know anything about their prophet expect what they read in Mukhtasar Bukhari (A shortened version of Bukhari)
Basically I never knew anything about the Sira. Then I read your book Understanding Muhammad and my eyes opened. I thought my religion was a religion of peace. I often ask my friends why doesn’t God help us if we are His chosen people? Why Muslims are in worst condition everywhere? They reply because Allah is testing us. What a joke! I consulted many Muslims about Muhammad. I once asked a friend, “what to do with a man who wants to leave Islam he replied, “Kill Him Without Any Delay” I was so shocked. Then I read Koran with translation and I found it very offensive book what a peaceful book , for suppose if other religious book tell us , “Kill the Muslims wherever you find them” I do not know how would Muslims react.
I was a Muslim and I can tell you in India most Muslims say kill Hindus; they are dogs, dirty. But I find Muslims dirtier. Hindu people are good and decent.
Now I am an atheist I can’t go to Christianity because I know earth is billions of years old and a person cannot be God’s son. Now I have seen the real face of Islam, the curse to mankind. It should be down as soon as possible I hate when people call me a Muslim. I want to remove this label please help. I live my life as a free bird I listen to Music and don’t waste my time In prayer.
I have another request. I the footnote of your book you often refer to Ibn ishaq when we know that Ibn Ishaq’s book is lost and what is left is ibn Hisham’s recession of it.